问题出现了。。。

上了Degree的苦：问题出现了！

 我有个朋友。。。让我很想跟他讲这些话。。。

跟你讲话好苦。。讲那样又不是，讲这样又不是！你到底要怎样！？

讲一下话，又开始吵了~人家又没有要跟你吵~！是你自己，讲一点，又不讲一点。。。讲话讲好来啦！！！！气死我了！

你人很奇怪~你不让我知道你人是怎样，那我就只能猜,但是你又讲我assume你人是如何....你到底要我怎样？==！！

是你自己对事不问不问的。。。真的不想跟你讲任何关于我的事情。。。==讲给你听你又不里，不讲。。。你又不会想人家的感受讲话。。。气死我了！！！

算了。。。算了。。。不要讲那个死笨蛋。。。== 讲他就气。。。

另一个问题。。。==干吗我身边的人都奇奇怪怪的？讲话。。。没想过。。。做事情。。。也没想好。。。== 还是我自己有问题？

New Beginning~

Ah~it's nearly the end of the first trimester in degree~ Hahaha~~been such long time since I updated this blog. There isn't much in my life now except studies~ I just love my course.

I did like someone but I gave up because there was just too much tears to begin with..XD He annoys me, irritates me and is such a pain in the neck. My heart was messed up because of him. He is the first person I have difficulty in understanding and communicating, due to this I have even doubted my abilities in socializing with others.

I admit I am still a tiny bit fond of him because there are times I thought of him but it was too much trouble and too much pain to even put him in a position that matters because I once did and I cried nearly every day and he wasn't worth the agony but he is worth the hardship in trying to be friends with him.

So I have yet to like anyone in degree and right now I just want to focus on myself and my studies which interests me and is an excitement to me~ Because being an student is worth all the stress! XD

Hahahah~~thats all for now~~XD

C.E.Soon

Hohoho~

I am back from the slumps and is standing tall again!~ It's all in the past...Though I admit I still care about him a little...because he was once a person I loved. There is no hate in my heart, no annoyance...just...*sigh* Hahahaha~

Going to degree soon and I am anticipating it every single day!! Well I do still have my finals to deal with...From the 25th of April till the 29th of April and then I AM FREE~~~for 3 weeks that is, then I have to return to Kampar for Orientation Week....attendance is compulsory....@.@

These days I'm kind of addicted to a song from Burlesque sung by Cher,'You haven't seen the last of me'. I love it! Really gets you motivated!!~~XD

On this day...

On this day of forgiveness and love, I have finally understood the truth in the things that had happened and on this Christmas Eve, I have indeed been enlightened.

有爱才会有恨，
有恨才会有痛，
有痛就会有苦，
但也因为有苦才会得到真正的幸福。

我们人一直在爱与恨之间流浪，
明明是爱却要恨,也因此痛苦一生。

真爱难求，
但是来了，
想忘也忘不了，
想放也放不下。

虽然，
爱已经不在手里，
但就留在心里，
只能往前走，
慢慢的等待爱回来。

我们人因为爱而痛苦，
也因为爱才幸福。
人也因为有爱才能活下去。

人往往选择留在痛苦之中，
但我们也不要忘了，
不要因为不能在一起而伤心，痛哭和难过，
反而要为了曾经在一起过而开心。

I will stand up again...

I still love you and will most probably love you always, I don't know when I'll stop loving you...but I believe that the you that loves me will come back to me. Now I will love myself and show you that I deserve your love and deserve to love you.

I really miss you and wishes you well...I would not ask you accompany me or be there for me because for that to happen I have to accompany myself and be there for myself...I am sorry I cannot be there for you...

Dear,I will wait for you to come back to me, I believe you still love me because you love me. And I will always love you because I love you.

I will stand up again and be the person you love again.

我又来了。。。

我已经不知道要写些什么了。。。我昨晚send了email给你，send了过后很后悔，因为写了我不应该让你知道的一些事情。。。我今天很怕你读了会很生气我，很幸运的你没读。我只能叫你把那些email delete掉。

我很希望你不会去看那些email，我也觉得你是不会看的。我今天的心情还ok但是在ecs的时候，有点擦，但是过后我能冷静下来，没有做些傻事。还能很靠近你。。。我想到已经开心了~哈哈~我已经很容易开心了。。。

今晚，有pasar malam,已经很久没跟你拖着手一起去，今天遇上了一个日本人，不小心跟他讲了日本话。。。很想你在我身边，很想你关心我，很想你在乎我。。。如此希望，及时才能实现？

你对我冷漠，是不是因为你还在生气我？还是，你要逼我放手？还是你要教我怎样自己一个人？还是你要教训我？还是。。。你已经不爱我了？哈哈~没可能。。。因为。。。你没说过。

在pasar malam买了东西吃，吃到很饱，想起了你，以前一起吃东西，吃不完的你吃。。。弄到你长肥了，但是你怎样吃都不会胖。。。哈哈~很怀念哦~

再晚一点我要去看流星雨了，很想你陪我看，那也是没可能的。。。你好好照顾你自己，别让自己累坏。。。

爱你的
C.E

又是开心的一天。。。

我还以为今天只能早上见到你，没想到我们下午的时候又能见，还能很好的讲话，你放你的手在我脸上的时候，我真的真的很开心~！哈哈~我想起都开心了。。。我这几天想了很多事情，不是什么坏事，我星期天晚上，睡前，很想你，真的真的很想你，然后心里痛到我快要受不了，但是我突然想到未来。

我想到的未来，很开心，很幸福，我想要我想到的未来，我就要乖乖的，不要让你担心，让你伤心。然后好像魔术那么的神奇，我突然没有很辛苦的感觉，反而觉得很开心，很期待未来。我是不是很奇怪了？哈哈，这就是你爱的爱茵。

时间表的事，你一定很烦恼，因为我很想跟你同时间，但你妈妈。。。*叹气*就让你很为难，我不想你难做，所以就决定要用你的时间还有侍薇的时间，弄个新的。。。那就不会跟你的一样，也可以跟大姐有些一样啊~我是不是很聪明呢？XD

你不要担心我，我会照顾好我自己，不会让你心痛。但是我还是想跟你住在同一个屋子，那晚上我至少还能见到你，晚餐我可以煮给你吃。。。我想到已经很开心~但是我也懂，事情没那么容易。一切都会好转的，你别太担心，还是伤心的，因为，我相信，以后的日子会好过一点。

爱你的C.E.Soon