Between the Life and Death?

Many of us...had lost friends whether by natural means or by accidents, recently or more accurately about a few months or so ago, for the first time in my life I lost a friend..

His departure shook the whole school, everywhere I turned I saw tears and I was crying myself. I have very little memory of my friend, I was not close to him but he was a great person, a nice guy. I could not accept the fact of his absence, I was not the only one, that day was the day the whole school cried. I stopped crying somehow...knowing very well, he does not wants to see us cry. All the while all I could think of was...how I never got to know him,how I wished to see him and how sudden it was.

I have regretted the fact that I never got to know him better, now I have lost the chance. Everytime I imagine his laughter and his jokes, I could feel tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. I realised then and there, I will never see him again or hear his voice again. I realised that for the first time I have lost a friend.

I had realised to how sudden things can happen, how sudden someone will be taken away from us...how we would regret when you realised you will never be able to see someone again. Many a night I had laid awake in bed, thinking if I were to lose someone again how would I feel....I have not once but more than twice had recalled the memories I have of my friend. I realised that anything can happen tomorrow.

Tomorrow is a new day but you never know what will happen, you would not know if you would be next or your friend would be. This accident had taught me forever more to appreciate all those around me, be it friends or enemies, I know that I could never changed the past but somehow if we learn from the past, we would know that all misunderstandings we have with our friends or any arguments we may have should be resolved or we would one day regret. Regret that you had not changed what could be changed, had not done what could be done.

Learn to love and to appreciate those around you, even if they may not love you as much as you love them, love them still...you only live once and only once you have the chance.

"Family is like a house and we are the occupants, forever more connected."

"Friends are like water, we may not need them once in awhile but we will need them in the end."

"Love is a precious jewel, once lost, it is never found again."

~:In Loving Memory of Tevindiran who passed away on the 29th of July 2009:~
~May he rest in peace~

Four Seasons

All four seasons were created for a reason..

If you notice, Spring is the start of all life,trees starts to grow leaves again,animals starts to forage for food,the whole world is moving. The world is alive,reborn. Just like humans,when we were born,everything around us were moving,our parents were excited,the doctors were wishing your parents...everyone in fact was wishing your parents. The birth of a child is like Spring,the start of life.

As the season shifts to Summer,trees began to bear flowers,full of different colours and different scents, animals start to mingle with each other,similar to humans, as we grow up,we go through the ups and downs of life like the colours of the flowers and like animals in summer,we start to communicate with other people,making friends and seeking for such a thing called 'love'. The ups and downs of our life is like Summer.

Now we've come to Autumn,a season where living things seems to slows down,the trees shedding their leaves bearing fruits which are sweet and colourful,animals have given birth and taking care of their youngs. Likewise,we reaching the right age and have our own children who give us sweetness and colour in life,we've grown old,we shed our old and immature thinking. This stage of our life is similar to Autumn.

Last but not least we've come to Winter,here,all is quiet and silent,not a single living being in sight,trees have shed all their leaves and looks dead, animals are hibernating or have migrated to warmer areas. We have come to the end of our journey in life,nearing our ends,all is quiet and peaceful,we have gain a peace of mind and ready to end our journey. The last stage of our life is Winter.

However,the seasons are recurrent,it's a cycle,like life. We may have ended this journey but we may start another when Spring comes again...All is in the hands of God.

Memoirs of the Unchanged

Throughout my years..19 years to be exact, I'm not old or have even reached half of my life yet I've seen people change from the days they were in primary to today...or people I have recently known last year who have change...in ways I do not understand. Naturally I change as well..humans change but not our memories.

Have you ever wondered in your life how much a person can change? I realised this suddenly this year..I know someone since last year and somehow now..it's as though I don't know him anymore..more like a stranger...than a friend.

I was surprised of course...but I usually witness the change..of a person in the lapse of five years..It's unbelievable how much a person can change..I for one fear change...yet sometimes embrace it. I fear the change that will take away things dear to me...yet embrace change that gives everyone a better life..how ironic isn't it?

Change however never seemed to apply to memories,they fade...but yet never altered. As we recall a memory we remember them as they were...I remembered my friend who changed drastically,recalling him to be a person whom I thought I understand...Now I realised...I do not know him at all..let alone saying we're close friends..

My memories about people I love and cared are as vivid as the memory of the sun the day I started remembering,bright and clear. Not a moment forgotten..even the unhappy ones,I remember my first fight with my best friend...resulting in fever the next day, I remember my most unhappiest moments,remembered my friends happiest moments and of course my family's happiest moments. I remember every detail,every word...And of course if you ask if I remember words of my changed friend,I do..every single one...words he meant,words he didn't mean..I remembered.

I have,throughout my whole life witness not a single change but many, I hope with every particle in me that my memories will remain the way it is....for always..

Love

How long have you know the person you are now going out with? Have you ever asked yourself why? Or has that 'why' never appear in your mind?

The definition of crush in my book:-
Crush is a feeling you get when you are attracted to someone because of his/her looks,the first impressions...this is neither like nor love.

The definition of like in my book:-
Like is a feeling you get when you like that person for their personality,for who they are...this is like.

The definition of love in my book:-
Love is a curious thing, when you look for it,it would not come but when you least expect it, it comes to you seeking you out asking you to return it. Love is a feeling you get when you love him/her for no apparent reason,even if he/she was a jerk to your family and friends,to you he/she is an angel. Love needs no reason.


Love too cannot be measured, many asked the person they like/love,'how much do you like me?' this question should never be asked if you trust the person before you,if you love him/her never ask this stupid question. If you really need an answer for that, you are being shallow, you believe love can be measured,you feel that that person loves you only when he/she says she'll die for you.

Will you then,be satisfied? Let time tell you if he/she is worthy of your love,do not question his/her love for you but question your love for him/her,how much you love him/her? Can you measure it? If you can,then you don't love him/her much...it's all but like or affection influenced by the intimacy you both shared. LOVE can never ever be measured in anyway.

Love at first sight..is to me delusional,they are all but illusions,not many can find true love through first sight. True love can only be found through time,through hardships and through trust. No one can see a person and say that person is the love of their live...how do you know? The feeling you get? That would be greatly influenced by his/her looks,you can't tell if he/she is the one..for only through time will you know.

Your parents give/gave you unconditional love,your spouse should and would give you the same. If the love is conditional,it isn't love at all...if you found your spouse by first sight,I would congratulate you but if you found your bf/gf by first sight..and believe him/her to be the ONE,I suggest give it time...Love is a curious thing for it needs no reason and of all emotions and things in the world it...can never be measured in any way of any form.