I Finally Figure Out Why

I had not been sleeping well this morning and my wandered to a corner I had not visited for a long, long time. I realised that my inability to let go of something has a few reasons.

1st:
The person who was involved with the 'something' is a constant reminder of how stupid and foolish I once were and this keep the incident fresh in mind everytime I see him.

2nd:
The reasons used to break off our relationship was so ridiculuous that my pride and ego has been hurt badly.

3rd:
And lastly, I shun the memories I have with him and of him....It makes me shiver...and I feel dirty..

I understand that every memory is something precious and that I should cherish it but at the moment, I feel disgusted at how I had become during that time of my life. Maybe one day, I'll come to cherish it as an everlasting memory of something that taught me to stand up tall and walk the road of life again.

Rings and Their Meaning, To me

Stainless Steel Ring

A stainless steel ring, is stainless, just like a new relationship. It shines moderately with determination and simplicity but is easily scratch, like a new relationship, it is stainless but easily affected by simple obstacles that scratches the surface of the relationship.

Silver Ring

A silver ring, shines when one wears the ring. If one does not wear the ring, it will start to turn darker in colour. Like a relationship that has reached the second stage, it needs to be maintain and place close to heart so that the relationship will not turn stale like an old silver ring.

Gold Ring

A gold ring, shines and is stainless. When a relationship has ripen, it is like a gold ring. True love, true sacrife and true perserverance. A gold ring is like a relationship whereby the couple is willing and will walk the road together till the end of time.

My relationship, is still a baby. A stainless steel ring adorns my right hand, I hope one day, a gold ring will adorn my right hand when the time is right.